Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Overwhelmed But The End Is In Sight!
Agh! Nine months since my last post? What have I been doing?! Oh yeah, working. A lot. Work is good, but too much work sucks my energy and turns me into a zombie when I get home. My poor, neglected dog is lucky to get a walk around the block and my house, well, my house is a disaster. For the past year and a half I've been dividing my work time between landscape design and my internship with the water district. Both jobs held the promise of offering me steady, full time work, but neither could follow through. For a while it worked. I scraped by, but at least I had time for myself, my friends, my house and my dog. But then both started demanding more and more of my time and I found myself working 15+ hour days. One week I worked nearly 70 hours, pulling 3 all nighters in a row. Some people can do that. Some people thrive on it. I'm not one of those people. It bums me out and makes me resent what I do. But just when I thought I was going to snap, something wonderful happened. I was finally offered a full time position with the district as a water conservation specialist! I struggled a bit with the thought of giving up landscape design, but in the end, the instability and inconsistency of the business and the constant need to sell myself and my ideas to people was too much. Oh yeah, and I was tire of being poor all the time. But now, starting next month, I will work normal hours, have normal days off and my free time will be my own! And I get to work in conservation and run a landscape rebate program and use my environmental studies degree and my landscape horticulture degree! Maybe I'll do landscape design on the side as well, once things settle down. A design here and there would keep me happy!